I can't believe we are leaving for Europe so soon! The older I get the more of a homebody I become & the idea of leaving for almost 1 month makes me nervous. I wonder if I will get homesick & wish we had planned a shorter trip? At the same time, I are plan on making some big changes in my life in the next year & it may be a while before we can take such a long & care free trip. I should probably suck up any homesickness & instead enjoy my freedom!
We are going to several countries which will keep it interesting, but I am glad for the week we rented an apartment in Italy which will allow us time to relax, read books & take lazy walks & boat rides. Also, I'm thinking of taking a cooking class when we are in Cinque Terre. I wish I could travel all around France, Italy & Spain & take cooking classes in all the different regions, but that's a trip for later.
In preparation for our week of hiking the Alps I've been running up hills & speed hiking to whip my butt into shape as best as I can. Unfortunately, I've begun to feel the return of my plantar fasciitis which made my life miserable all through last year (and some of the year before! Yikes!). I've had to take a break from running & I am returning to physical therapy next week. It's such a bummer to have my body fail me over & over when all I want is to be healthy!
Sometimes I wonder if the problems I have had with my feet in the last 2 years are manifestations of my need to move on from my job. I have been in the service industry my whole working life which I realize is pretty common for us folks in the art world.
There are many good aspects to it.
For example, being able to take off to Europe for almost a whole month!
Also, I do love that when I leave work, my work stays at work. I know a lot of people who have to bring home work to finish during the evenings & weekends. That doesn't happen as a bartender or waitress.
But then the big downfall for me is that I am not using my creativity. Really, I am not being mentally challenged in any way. Pouring beers really is quite boring work & there is no room to grow.
The job doesn't evolve.
That was fine when I started this job 7+ years ago, but in that time I have evolved. I've traveled, graduated from college & bought a house. I want more than to make art as a hobby. I want to be challenged artistically by my job & be surrounded by other creative people. I want my job to demand that I improve & grow as an artist. But where to go when all I know is the service industry?
And honestly, it is hard to make a change when I am so comfortable. And the great big world seems scary with new bosses & coworkers... Yikes!
So, maybe I have begun to have foot problems because it is symbolic for my need to depart from this line of work? Maybe my body is stepping in to force me to make a change that I have been afraid to make?
Or maybe I am just having foot problems.